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I’m sorry you are going through this. It is awful when major things happen all at once.

Here is a story of my work today.

I work at a lawn care business. Today we got to this beautiful brick home with the metal bar fencing that looks so good with brick. As me and my crew were getting out of the pickup I see a deer bedded down in the yard under a bush, in the backyard. I point her out to my sister and the third girl in our all girl crew. And my sister promptly says the doe looks like a Debra. I asked ‘why not long ears?’ The doe’s ears were quite large. My sister ignored me as sisters do. Anyway I get the riding lawn out and head to the back yard to mow. Debra has gotten up at this point and I thought she had left, but I come mowing around a bush and there she is with two little fawns who we’re just losing their spots. She gives me the most disgusted ‘are you serious look I have ever seen on a deer’s face and turns and heads off between the short metal fence and the house to the front yard. I continue making my loop around the yard and look up to see one of the babies come back my way between the fence and house. He sees me on my scary riding lawn mower and freezes for a second. I am maybe 10ft away from the poor guy so I stop moving to give him a chance to figure out how to get away. I can’t make myself less scary, he turns around and gets to the other side of the house and sees my sister who is weed eating the front sidewalk edges. My sister has stopped weed eating at this point to not scare the baby any more than necessary. He sees her and turns right out of my sight behind the house. Then I see a baby jump the fence successfully getting away from us. I thought it was baby number one, later my sister informed me it was baby number 2. I started to mow again but my sister made a motion letting me know another baby was coming so I stop and wait. A moment later a bay comes flying around the corner through the narrow space between the house and fence sees me turns and runs back through the space sees my sister and freezes. He is shaking so badly I can see it from 20 ft away and the stress is rolling off the poor baby. My sister is dying laughing and I’m laughing a good deal too. Then he makes a massive leap without gaining much momentum and clears the fence reaching his sibling and mother. Then they turn and head off. I feel bad for the little guy but it was really funny waiting for him to find the right answer out of his predicament.

Ahhhh man I am so very sorry ; the best thing for you is to get better to help your mom ; i know how that sounds, but you both need rest and emotional support right now. Your Grandmother more than likely had a good life and is going to a better place to be with family members who have passed over already. When I start getting depressed I try to cudle a pet or watch a dinsey kid flick ; its just enough to help me get through the day. The good news : I had 4 of 8 Foster kittens get adopted this week ! now i just need to get this new batch of kittens up and running and neutered so we can home these guys!

Sorry to hear that you're dealing with so many difficult things right now, it can't be easy.

What has always kept me going in tough times is to try to still find a few "normal" things in my day to focus on to take breaks, even if that's just watching a favourite show or going for a walk, or listening to some good music. It is also really hard when a grandparent is having health problems, and I'm sure it is more difficult in the context of covid. I lost several of my grandparents, but I still try to remember the good things they taught me and the example they set and carry it forward as a way of keeping them with me.

Hope that you're able to find a new solution to your health difficulties and are able to get some rest in the meantime!

(Moving this to the Saddle Sisterhood category)

So sorry to hear about your grandma, and your own medical issues. It seems like lately it doesn't rain, but it pours! {{{HUGS!}}}

Adding my prayers for you and your family. [-O< >:D<

@HorseAngel I live in Texas as well and if its going the way I think its going it'll hit Texas too. If not we are all in for some major flooding as its a CAT 4 with a possibility of changing to a CAT 5.

@HorseAngel we faired ok just a lot of flooding and yes in for a lot more rain and heavy storms! Be safe

Sorry it took me so long to see this post. I guess you say thanks for everything she did and maybe recall some of your favorite memories. Remember old people who've lived good long lives want to be celebrated and remembered fondly, not mourned. A piece of her will live on in anything she taught you.

Best of luck in getting through this.

My deepest sympathies to you and your family, HorseAngel. Losing any close family members is hard. I've lost grandparents, parents, most of my aunts and uncles, having survived myself to reach 75. It doesn't become easier, that's for sure. Try to be thankful that your grandmother is no longer struggling to breathe, and know that her spirit will still be loving you even though she herself is no longer with you.

My father told this story. My mother died before he did, and her ashes were buried in the graveyard behind the church they had attended for many years. He told us that after the Sunday service he would go out and stand by the pillar that marked the place where her ashes (and those of others) had been laid to rest. He would look at the spot where her ashes lay and tell her about what had happened during the last week. One Sunday, he told us, he heard her voice, as clearly as if she were standing beside him, saying, "Now, Steve, you KNOW that I'm not down there!"

Memories of those who have gone before are precious treasures that they bequeath to us, true gold to help us on our way through the rest of our lives. Perhaps you could make a new painting of something you'd like in her memory.

Being an older person myself (66 years old) I have, like SandyCreekAcres, lost many loved ones. From my experience, the first year is the hardest because you have to go through birthdays, anniversaries, Christmas etc for the first time without your loved one. You never truly 'get over it' but it does start to ease with time. When I die, I just want my family to remember me for anything good I did and that I had a good life after I met my husband.